Today is the first day of my interpretation course. It also the day that I lost my entire confidence for Eng. and completely been defeated. First, the course gathered almost all the best students from our department (Unfortunately, except me) I feel like that I am the rabbit accidentally ran into the dusky forest. By surrounded with those “genius”, the atmosphere that full of pressure and uneasiness really nauseated me. Right, indeed, I just feel inferior. How pathetic. What worse, I was totally freaked out and flustered when the instructor asked us to speak on the stage for answering the following Qs: 1. what do you learn in the past 4 year 2. Why you want to take the interpretation course It should be nothing but simple Qs ever. How come my mind suddenly went blank at that time?!! How come I say nothing toward my past 4 year learning at school? To examine my conscience, I do put lots effort on learning Eng. (not the best but at intermediary level? I think) and German (although I have forgotten most of them, pity.) Recall my memory I prepared the entrance test at junior high ( I study at 5-Year Junior College) those expectation to myself and passion toward language at the begining ceremony of college “I must be proficient in English before I graduate!” ahhh……where have those passion and spirit gone? Major in Eng, minor in German for already 4 year!!hey it’s 4year!! and gonna graduated next year! How come I still can’t conquer the fear then speak fluently Eng with confident on the stage like other students who have took the same course even studied at the same school for entire 4 year? Is this consequence result from my laziness to learning? Is that means actually I still not put enough effort on learning? Gee….I never fell so desperate depressed...even useless ever. Feel so sorry for my parents, friends and those teachers who have great expectation to me . Sorry ,I let you all down. I do have tried. Never imagine one day my dear love one, my dear Eng will break my heart so harshly (weep) --

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