The weather is getting warmer and warmer. So there is sunshine. It is mild and kinda hot. Actually I have no idea about the suffering of the day before yesterday. I felt very painful at that time for a period. But after 17:30PM last night, I feel better. And now I am no problem. I'm good finally. Is it caused by the climate? Maybe the humidity and the temperature cause my nerve tight? Or I miss the previous job badly? Actually I cannot apply for the position in previous USA corporation again. Firstly, I am weak. I never think about competing with the colleagues there. I consider all the colleagues as my friends or the role models. Secondly, my performance is bad. At that time, I only successfully deliver 5 shipments in a month. So you can imagine what I have done and I am a useless staff there. Thirdly, my work experience is short. There are some points on my resume. (key point) The lastest experiences are very short, for example one month respectively. Last but not the least, I am not a good person that is welcomed and popular. The colleagues are not willing to share their fruits of business to me. That is a cometing place, not a friendly place to stay. I miss 7. I wanna talk to 7. But I am doing useless. Firstly, 7 is married. I am the third person possibly. I hate destroying people's happiness. Secondly, 7 and I am not match. 7 is on the upper level, while I belong to the lower class. I don't want to explain more, but you can see that I have limited economy. Economy decides one's altitude. Thirdly, I might be older than 7. I have not asked about 7's age, but he looks younger than me. Maybe I am older than he is. Last but noe the least, I don't like to ruin one's life. As you know, I was cursed by someone that is greater than me. So people cannot be my friends, otherwise those whom make friends with me will get bad luck or be punished to death. I have seen a lot of people that become very pathetic and poor after being my friends. I don't want my bad luck to spread to 7's surroundings. Maybe I am a ghost! Anyway, I feel that I need to put myself together. Since my dream is to teach law, why do I still make the job of a salesperson? Don't you feel that it's ridiculous that I wanna do the opposite way? I work because I have to make money for my living expenses. But it seems that I cannot do the work well and perfect. That's why I am inconstantly fired again and again. However, can you tell me what kind of job I can do when I am non-maturity? I'm coughing badly now. Sigh... Have a nice night! Good Nite! --

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