Dear philletheia, I can totally understand your feelings right now. But, you know what? It's not a big deal. I don't think you drop the ball. At least, you can write down this article, which many people are too afraid to do so. At times, all we have to do is just to face our weakness. Stage fright can be one, and believe me or not, you will come across more, bigger, more complicated challenges than this one in the near or distant future of your life. Never be afraid of saying hi to your weakness. Greet it, improve it, and become the better person that you are dreaming of. That is exactly what life is meant for. No one was born to be perfect. Actually, you don't have to be perfect, either. Dream the impossible dream and reach the unreachable star. It's interesting, isn't it? If our life leaves nothing to be desired, we won't have so much fun, and expectations for our life and ourselves. Always be active and postive and never compare yourself with ohters. All you have to find out is the best in you, not the best in others. Those so called " geniuses" are really satisfied with their life? Can they handle the depression of failure? As we know, no one can be successful for good, and failure will come sooner or later no matter if we are ready to embrace it. If you think you have tried, let me tell you to try harder. Someone once said, " When written in Chinese the word crisis is composed of two characters. One represents danger and the other represents opportunity." Therefore, what did you get from it? Don't you think it just conveys that you need to better yourself? You can be depressed for sure, but not for too long. Time waits for no one. Pick up your passion toward English and show your ambition and enthusiasm again. No one can stop you unless you tell yourself not to keep going. My humble suggestion will be offered, and maybe it's not useful. If you can get a chance to go overseas for advanced study, I do believe that you will get your sense of achievement back pretty soon. If you don't have the chance, I think it is acceptable. That's becasue you have the answer to the professor's question. " What do you learn in the past four years?" " I learn that I am still not good at English. I truly know that I am not good enough and that is the reason why I can't quit now. That's becasue I will never fail myself, and those who have expectations for me." Dear philletheia, show the world the best of you. Face the problem and fix it. Good luck and good night. ※ 引述《philletheia (Lethe)》之铭言 : Today is the first day of my interpretation course. : It also the day that I lost my entire confidence for Eng. and completely been : defeated. : First, the course gathered almost all the best students from our department : (Unfortunately, except me) : I feel like that I am the rabbit accidentally ran into the dusky forest. : By surrounded with those “genius”, the atmosphere that full of pressure and : uneasiness really nauseated me. : Right, indeed, I just feel inferior. How pathetic. : What worse, I was totally freaked out and flustered when the instructor asked : us to speak on the stage for answering the following Qs: : 1. what do you learn in the past 4 year : 2. Why you want to take the interpretation course : It should be nothing but simple Qs ever. : How come my mind suddenly went blank at that time?!! : How come I say nothing toward my past 4 year learning at school? : To examine my conscience, I do put lots effort on learning Eng. (not the best but : at intermediary level? I think) and German (although I have forgotten most of : them, pity.) : Recall my memory I prepared the entrance test at junior high : ( I study at 5-Year Junior College) : those expectation to myself and passion toward language : at the begining ceremony of college : “I must be proficient in English before I graduate!” : ahhh……where have those passion and spirit gone? : Major in Eng, minor in German for already 4 year!!hey it’s 4year!! : and gonna graduated next year! : How come I still can’t conquer the fear then speak fluently Eng with : confident on the stage like other students who have took the same course even : studied at the same school for entire 4 year? : Is this consequence result from my laziness to learning? : Is that means actually I still not put enough effort on learning? : Gee….I never fell so desperate depressed...even useless ever. : Feel so sorry for my parents, friends and those teachers who have great : expectation to me . : Sorry ,I let you all down. : I do have tried. : Never imagine one day my dear love one, : my dear Eng will break my heart so harshly : (weep) --

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