Everytime, I feel boring , and I cannot have a balance between my work and study. I tried to have some examination to ensure that I still have ability to do something. But I find myself a lazy person and I don't have enough courage to fulfill it, the most easy thing, such as TOEIC...(I am stingy in costing in examination) But I think when I have the certification, I can show others what do I have in my brain....I really like to have fun or kidding someone else to have a blank brain ... Yesterday, when I was off of my time, I take a leisure to stroll on a road... that was kept about 50 years more , composed of old buidings, dormotory, and trees , flowers, things belonging to the nature. Every step I pass by, the surrouding remind my to forget about the bothering in work, and I need to do something to prove myself THe courage should not disappear even I am a adult , or when I am old enough. Sometimes I need some enforcement , to be like a student, or to try to prove to other else what indeed do I have. I know it was poor as me to have nothing special in my life and memory. Today is a easy day as usual, and my time passed with my enjoyment of videos. The life I have is somewhat like a junior student or senior student. I don't know who can comfort me for every step I get trapped. But the YOUTUBE is my best friend, and also cartoon network. I don't have much time to enjoy some discussion meeting, to exchange my knowledge. Every one was so acknowledged by their desire for knowledge and new things. I like drums, dance, drawing, even I cannot really be good at it. I like skiing, singing, but everything is like a dream I really want to join a group in which I can enjoy my interests with my friends I have many choices, but I choose to miss it. I am not the talent one, and I am still poor and think my brain blank. The tragedy is that someone dreams about her brilliant future without doing something real. I am the ghost of myself indeed. --

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